Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Right Book First Chapter { I can see it now}

As she was moving through the chapters of her second book she found something, something that exceeded all her expectations and truly made her smile. After everything she has been through shouldn't she at least be open to it? She thought she was, but then that fear of getting hurt sank in. She was convincing herself that there were no good intentions on his end, that this was all a game. Maybe it was the rumors circulating that caused her to run and write him off, but something about him kept her coming right back. Maybe the fact that he was a chase and she liked that, or maybe she actually felt something, even if it was the tiniest bit. She is the type of girl who will stick around for a few months, get bored and just disappear out of his life, and then reappear when she finds it convenient for just her. But this time he wasn't going to let her do that. Slowly he was putting her in her place, telling her how it really is and if she doesn't like it then she can leave, but she never wanted to leave. He was teaching her lessons.

-The more you convince yourself that someone is going to hurt you, you're going to hurt yourself in the end. He'll not want to deal and you'll be stuck alone again on that one way street you found all too familiar.
-Relax. Take things for what they are in that moment in time.
-Who cares what people think or want, they knew what was going on with one another and in the end that was what counted.

He was showing he was sorry and she needed to stop painting this picture of how it should be, because guess what? It wasn't that way and if she didn't like the way it was, then there was the door. She no longer would be cosseted and she needed that.
She took a step in and hoped to god it wasn't a mistake, but she swore she wouldn't dwell on the "what if".

"When it was hard to take this is was I thought about. Do you remember we were sitting there by the water. You put your arm around me for the first time. You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter. You are the best thing"

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