Tuesday, August 17, 2010

When my world is falling apart

This past year has been the hardest year of my life. I lost myself, I lost my dad for a while, I didn't go to the one school I worked so hard to get in, I got caught up in so many problems, friends I thought I would have a lifetime were gone. But there was one thing that always kept me going.. the two girls I nanny. They have become one of the biggest parts of my life. I see them more than I see anyone else. I have watched them grow into beautiful young girls. When I was having a bad day, just knowing that I got to see the girls made me smile. They could always sense when I was having a bad day and would do anything to make me happy. They look up to me. I see them as my little sisters. Caroline has become a little version of me and I absolutely love it. She truly thinks I'm one of the greatest people in the world and that makes my world. Camryn will always be my little sunshine. I don't think anyone has told me they love me as much as her. They are the reason I will one day be the most amazing mother. I learned so much about myself and life, all through them. One thing I promised myself this year is that I would make a difference in someone's life. I made a difference in two. I am so proud of both of these girls and what they have learned and conquered. When my world was looking like it would turn for the worst, they both made it okay.

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